I went to see the American movie 'Ce que pensent les hommes' with Sam, an interesting boy. After the movie, we were quite excited, and he asked me what did I think of it? Of course, the American movie is purely the drug, making you feel better or again hopeful with all sorts of Happy Ending history; that's why I like french movie, coz it shows the true colour. But, does the true colour really do good?
More and more, I even prefer the ridiculous or simply happy happy thing , like American movie, they're kind,full of sympathy, even you're cheated at the end, you got maybe several minutes sparkling dream scesns....Anyhow, at the end, you're cheated, maybe you feel even worse, that's what I hate...so, actually it's totally bullshit, i'm talking bullshit
Exactly like what I am at the moment, deeply sad and disappointed. And even not sad for the person, or just want to profit the occasion to Feel, to feel the hurting sadness, to feel the ridiculous joke of the life, to feel the Pain in my heart.Especially, at the moment when spring comes, i can finally touch the little sunshine passing by the balcon,can smell the warmth mixing in the cool air....what a marvelous season--and I'm feeling hurt and sad---ALONE. it's quite dramatic, with the background of nice sunshine, u have the initiallly happiness to see the spring come, at the mean time, u cannot help to fall, fall in the chaotic hole of deception and sadness.
This is LIFE! Everytime, when you're fucked by the life, it seems that you love it more, like everybody saying 'la vie est belle'. It's simply because that You Are Fucked!